Can’t Sleep

I’ve been in bed for 3 hours, falling in and out of my sleep. I just can’t sleep, there’s too much on my mind.

I decided to get up, have a late night snack, play some soft music and try to be productive until I am at a point of exhaustion that I fall asleep as soon as I lay down.

I recently added Jessie Ware to my playlist per recommendation of a friend. I’ve heard her music before, I just didn’t know the name of the artist. Her music happens to have the right tempo for this hour. Say Your Love Me is playing at this moment…

I had set my alarm for 6AM so I could get up early to do some work. Might as well turn that off now, and get started with the work.

Work is not what is keeping me up though, I just use it as a distraction to keep myself busy. There’s so much to do, but so little time.

Can’t Sleep

What are your colors?

I had a True Colors Personality Test this week, something I’ve never done before. It was done at the salon that I co-own, and it was great seeing what colors my employees were, it told me a lot more about their personality – even outside of work.

Although most of what I learned this day is mainly a reaffirmation, it almost felt like I re-discovered myself, and even a feeling of – you see, that’s my natural personality and there’s nothing I can do about it!

Without further ado, here are my 2 primary colors:
Side note: My score tied between my primary and secondary colors, I had to use the tie breaker

Primary: Green

Personal Success Traits

  • Intelligence
  • Perfectionist
  • Language Skills
  • Developing Models
  • Handling Complexity
  • A Variety of Interests
  • Striving for Competency
  • Exploring Ideas / Abstract Thinking

Stressed in Environments That Reflect

  • Routine
  • Small Talk
  • Incompetence
  • Lack of Recognition of Their Ability
  • Social Functions
  • Emotional Displays
  • Not Being in Charge
  • Lack of Independence

Green Attributes

  • Why – we are always curious and want to understand why things work as they do
  • Perfectionist
  • Standard Setters
  • Philosophical
  • Very Complex
  • “Should be able to” attitude
  • Intellectual – Theoretical
  • Work is Play – Play is Work
  • Abstract, Conceptual, Global
  • Need for Independence and Private Time
  • Explores all Facets Before Making a Decision
  • Knows How to Spell and Pronounce “big” Words
  • Approaches Interpersonal Relationships in Logical Manner

My Take

Geez, most if not all of this is true. This is definitely my personality when it comes to business and getting shit done – which is most of the time. In business, if I’m going to spend time on it, I might as well aim to be the best at it. There are always solutions to problems, and the rules can be broken. I love learning new things, and implementing them in my life. In general, I can’t do much of the small talk, I rather be in a very small social setting than big events.

Secondary: Orange

Personal Success Traits

  • Zest for Life
  • Charm and Wit
  • Hunger for Variety
  • Spirit of Adventure
  • Entertaining Others
  • Desire to Test The Limits
  • Crisis Management Skills
  • Ability to Work With Tools

Stressed in Environments That Reflect

  • Too Much Responsibility
  • Rules and Regulations
  • Being Stuck at a Desk
  • Abstract Concepts
  • Reading Manuals
  • Imposed Structure
  • Repetition and Routine
  • Personal Criticism
  • Deadlines
  • Inactivity
  • Lack of Variety
  • Following Directions
  • Lack of Fun

Orange Attributes

  • Charming
  • Tests Limits
  • Master Negotiators
  • “Let’s Make a Deal”
  • Playful & Energetic
  • Pushes the Boundaries
  • Natural & Non-Conformist
  • Risk Taker “Just Do It”
  • Thrives on Competition
  • Creative
  • Inventive
  • Impulsive and Spontaneous
  • A Natural Entertainer
  • Likes Tangible Rewards
  • Most Productive in Informal Environments
  • High Need for Mobility
  • Visual and Kinesthetic

My Take

Hands down this is my fun side. This is me when I’m not in the business mode. I hate routine, I’m always seeking some adventure. I am very spontaneous, and a risk taker, the less I think of the possible outcomes, the better :) “Just Do It” is definitely in my vocabulary. I rather experience it rather than talking about it or having someone tell me about it.

What are your colors?

Rehearsing Situations

Have you ever rehearsed situations or had full conversations with yourself imagining you are talking to someone else? Sometimes I do that, every time I think I’m crazy and / or it’s a waste of time because I don’t know if it’s ever going to happen.

For the times that it does happen, no matter how many times I practiced, more often than not, it all comes out wrong.

It’s mainly because how I felt in a calm state gets overpowered by the mix of emotions once I’m dealing with the real thing. The good thing is that the outcome does end up being the same, however, the way it goes down is never how I imagine it.

Rehearsing Situations

I want it all

Live Life
People often say “you can’t have it all”. I don’t meant to come off selfish, but I want it all. What’s crazy is that I truly believe I can have it all, just maybe not at the same time.

The simple thought that I can have it all is what keeps me motivated, and that is what keeps things exciting. It’s not necessarily the thought that I can have all these material wishes – at the end of the day, that’s not much important. What’s important to me is realizing that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.

I like to live a life where I have little to no virtual restrictions. That’s exciting :)

Live your life and have fun with it.

I want it all

Age-related Memory Loss?

I have no idea if it’s because I’m getting older, the stress levels, the multi-tasking or all the fucking years of drinking. There’s been a lot of WTF moments recently and it makes me wonder if I’m dealing with a memory loss.

The worst part is that most of the time it happens with my wife, and she has to remind me of things we talked about, for example, a meeting/appointment she had mentioned on a previous conversation. I’d like to think I’m fully aware when we have a conversation, but a lot of times she talks to me when I’m working, or when I’m tired, or when I’m in the middle of something else. Maybe she just chooses the wrong moments to talk to me. But being forgetful on things happens often enough to get into some arguments about it, and I end up getting more mad at her than she with me.

Just this weekend I ran into someone and he said hello. I didn’t immediately recognize him, it wasn’t till I saw the rest of his friends till I remembered who he was. He is not a friend, more of an acquaintance. I had not seen him in over a year.

I’m also bad with names, but so are many people.

How serious is that? I don’t know, but maybe it’s time I take some vitamins and visit the doctor.

I guess preventing memory loss is another reason why I should eat well, write and meditate often.

Age-related Memory Loss?

Teach My Heart Something It Doesn’t Know

True love? I’ve felt it.
Happiness? I have.
Excitement? That too.

What can you show me? Perhaps something I already don’t know.

Sadness? Sometimes.
Missing someone? I have.
Hate? That too.
Heart ache? A few times.

Are you capable? Is it in you?

Fear? Don’t want it.
Lust? It’s crazy.

What can you teach my heart? Teach it something it doesn’t know.

What can you show me? Teach it before I learn it on my own.
I’m self-taught, I don’t wait around
There’s something you know, and I’ve never learned

You’re qualified, teach my heart something it doesn’t know


Inspired by The Weeknd Losers

Teach My Heart Something It Doesn’t Know

Living the NOW

I’ve posted about living the moment several times, each based on a recent life experience or something that I saw. The most recent post being Do it while you’re excited, and I wrote it because I was reminded not wait to see if a “perfect” moment comes along – do things when the excitement is there.

Today, thinking about recent experiences, I’m once again glad I live in the moment and in the NOW. So many good things and experiences have come from taking the opportunities that God puts in front of me, I’m glad I don’t hesitate much when making choices for opportunities I don’t get everyday and with lots of unknowns.

Most people always dwell on their past or worry too much about their future. The old shit, we just have to learn from it and let go. The future, we can always try to plan it and hope for it, but it’s guaranteed to no one. Thinking too much about the future will only make you miss the opportunities you have NOW. Even those opportunities that come only once in a life time.

I was jut reminded of a book I look forward to reading soon: The Power of Now.

Living the NOW

I got a big (eheheh)… ego

Coulda let the dream killers, kill my self esteem
Or use the arrogance as a steam that power my dreams
And my ego – Kanye (Ego Remix)

I heard the Ego Remix song today and also read an article on confidence. It got me thinking…

Sometimes we get criticized for having a big ego, but why the fuck should we think less of ourselves? Like if we don’t deserve what we work for. Like if our ego doesn’t build on our confidence even after every failure.

Never feel bad or inappropriate for having a big ego or confidence. Average minds will criticize your ego and confidence while the successful will look at you and smile – because they know that is part of what it takes to keep on improving.

This does not mean it’s okay to think less of other people. You should use your ego and confidence in a way that lifts you up, but never to put other people down.

“Some call it arrogant, I call it confidence” – Beyonce

I got a big (eheheh)… ego

5 Steps to Make a Memorable First Impression

Let’s face it – every time we meet someone the first thing we do is a visual profile. Whether we realize it or not, we do a glance of what they are wearing, their hygiene, perhaps their hair / haircut. Before the person even says a word, we already have an idea on our minds of wether we will like this person or not.

For this reason, when you want to make a memorable first impression, it is very important to be on top of your game, not just on the way you speak, but the way you dress.

For too many men, dressing well is a quality they feel they don’t need and it’s not important. They think people should like them for who they truly are, and they shouldn’t try to impress anyone. Most likely, these are the people with zero ambition, play video games, watch every fucking football game, and eat cold pizza with their roommates.

If you really want to make a memorable first impression, be ready to follow these 5 steps:

1) Dress Well
Just like I mentioned in the intro, dressing well is one of the most important, if not the most important steps of all. You must dress well, because the way you speak is not the first thing people see. Dressing well, especially as a male, is what separates you from the crowd. What do we assume about people that stand out? We assume that they are important. Good things come from dressing well, period.

2) Formal Greeting
When you meet someone, make eye contact and have a firm handshake. This shows respect and professionalism. Nowadays, many people greet someone by raising their head. I can go on by trying to explain why that isn’t okay, but I hope everyone can figure it out on their own.

3) Etiquette
Be respectful and have good manners. A lot of this involves putting other peoples needs first.

4) Non-verval communication
Your non-verbal communication is what will speak louder. Always deliver yourself with confidence. Be mindful of how you stand, sit, and move your hands. People will pick up your non-verbal communications and make a final judgement on you. One of the best non-verbal things you can do is smile.

5) Keep them wanting more
When you leave the room, you want other people to want more of you. Add some uniqueness in your style or delivery that will set you apart. When you speak, say enough, but never more.

5 Steps to Make a Memorable First Impression