Have you ever rehearsed situations or had full conversations with yourself imagining you are talking to someone else? Sometimes I do that, every time I think I’m crazy and / or it’s a waste of time because I don’t know if it’s ever going to happen.
For the times that it does happen, no matter how many times I practiced, more often than not, it all comes out wrong.
It’s mainly because how I felt in a calm state gets overpowered by the mix of emotions once I’m dealing with the real thing. The good thing is that the outcome does end up being the same, however, the way it goes down is never how I imagine it.