I want it all

Live Life
People often say “you can’t have it all”. I don’t meant to come off selfish, but I want it all. What’s crazy is that I truly believe I can have it all, just maybe not at the same time.

The simple thought that I can have it all is what keeps me motivated, and that is what keeps things exciting. It’s not necessarily the thought that I can have all these material wishes – at the end of the day, that’s not much important. What’s important to me is realizing that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.

I like to live a life where I have little to no virtual restrictions. That’s exciting :)

Live your life and have fun with it.

I want it all

Age-related Memory Loss?

I have no idea if it’s because I’m getting older, the stress levels, the multi-tasking or all the fucking years of drinking. There’s been a lot of WTF moments recently and it makes me wonder if I’m dealing with a memory loss.

The worst part is that most of the time it happens with my wife, and she has to remind me of things we talked about, for example, a meeting/appointment she had mentioned on a previous conversation. I’d like to think I’m fully aware when we have a conversation, but a lot of times she talks to me when I’m working, or when I’m tired, or when I’m in the middle of something else. Maybe she just chooses the wrong moments to talk to me. But being forgetful on things happens often enough to get into some arguments about it, and I end up getting more mad at her than she with me.

Just this weekend I ran into someone and he said hello. I didn’t immediately recognize him, it wasn’t till I saw the rest of his friends till I remembered who he was. He is not a friend, more of an acquaintance. I had not seen him in over a year.

I’m also bad with names, but so are many people.

How serious is that? I don’t know, but maybe it’s time I take some vitamins and visit the doctor.

I guess preventing memory loss is another reason why I should eat well, write and meditate often.

Age-related Memory Loss?

Teach My Heart Something It Doesn’t Know

True love? I’ve felt it.
Happiness? I have.
Excitement? That too.

What can you show me? Perhaps something I already don’t know.

Sadness? Sometimes.
Missing someone? I have.
Hate? That too.
Heart ache? A few times.

Are you capable? Is it in you?

Fear? Don’t want it.
Lust? It’s crazy.

What can you teach my heart? Teach it something it doesn’t know.

What can you show me? Teach it before I learn it on my own.
I’m self-taught, I don’t wait around
There’s something you know, and I’ve never learned

You’re qualified, teach my heart something it doesn’t know

– AMJ

Inspired by The Weeknd Losers

Teach My Heart Something It Doesn’t Know

Living the NOW

I’ve posted about living the moment several times, each based on a recent life experience or something that I saw. The most recent post being Do it while you’re excited, and I wrote it because I was reminded not wait to see if a “perfect” moment comes along – do things when the excitement is there.

Today, thinking about recent experiences, I’m once again glad I live in the moment and in the NOW. So many good things and experiences have come from taking the opportunities that God puts in front of me, I’m glad I don’t hesitate much when making choices for opportunities I don’t get everyday and with lots of unknowns.

Most people always dwell on their past or worry too much about their future. The old shit, we just have to learn from it and let go. The future, we can always try to plan it and hope for it, but it’s guaranteed to no one. Thinking too much about the future will only make you miss the opportunities you have NOW. Even those opportunities that come only once in a life time.

I was jut reminded of a book I look forward to reading soon: The Power of Now.

Living the NOW

I got a big (eheheh)… ego

Coulda let the dream killers, kill my self esteem
Or use the arrogance as a steam that power my dreams
And my ego – Kanye (Ego Remix)

I heard the Ego Remix song today and also read an article on confidence. It got me thinking…

Sometimes we get criticized for having a big ego, but why the fuck should we think less of ourselves? Like if we don’t deserve what we work for. Like if our ego doesn’t build on our confidence even after every failure.

Never feel bad or inappropriate for having a big ego or confidence. Average minds will criticize your ego and confidence while the successful will look at you and smile – because they know that is part of what it takes to keep on improving.

This does not mean it’s okay to think less of other people. You should use your ego and confidence in a way that lifts you up, but never to put other people down.

“Some call it arrogant, I call it confidence” – Beyonce

I got a big (eheheh)… ego